The count down - 7 hours and counting.
Yikes - I'm just a good night's sleep away from my surgery and I am EXHAUSTED! I did a bit of running around and of course got nothing done on my list. But you can't control everything --- a reoccurring lesson God is teaching me. So I am going to sleep tonight - after checking my temperature obsessively. Partially because I love my new gadget thermometer... partially because having a fever gives me an excuse to backout.... partially because I'm anxious and have obsessed over everything leading up to this. At this point I just really hope I am not burden to my cousin & roommate who are taking care of me. It's very hard for me to "be taken care of..." but I'll keep you posted. Good night everyone and thank you for all the well wishes and happy thoughts and prayers. Me and myBREAST thank you!
That's right- you can't control everything and it will continue to be a re-occurring lesson until you learn it. Then God can stop teaching it to you and he'll move onto the next lesson that will take a long time to work out.
ReplyDeleteI made the mistake of going to bed at 8pm because I also was exhausted. Now it's 2am and I'm wide awake. I think I really screwed up my schedule.
It's funny to see your journey from when you started this blog to now. You wre so filled with anxiety but now you are so calm, but I think it's because you have to be. Plus doing this blog has also helped you to process your feelings and confront them. That's the power of writing.
I'll be praying for you tomorrow. The next time I see you, it will be a whole new you.