my BREAST:
I have had large breast my entire life. I was the only 4th grader wearing a bra, a b cup at that. They have always been proportionately big compared to the rest of my body. The more weight I gained the bigger they got. By time I was in high school I was a D cup weighing in at 125lbs. By the time college was over I was a double J weighing in at 165 lbs. I'm a whopping 5 feet tall and my breast are basically my whole upper body. Scratch that, my breast ARE my upper body! Next to my skin complexion it's easiest identifying way to describe me. For the last 20 years of my life (I'm 30 now so it started young) I've been "You know Gyllian, the short black girl with HUGE tits". Tits, by the way is a word I despise! But... anyone I meet after November 19th, won't know me or describe as such. Oddly enough, I don't know how I feel about that. Really it's a annoying, because having large breast so seems to make them open for discussion at anytime, anywhere. I mean anywhere...with anyone... especially gay men and toddler aged boys. I mean they come up at work, school, the grocery store, the hair salon, everywhere! Annoying... but am I ready to give up that attention? hmmmm... not sure. What I suspect will happen is I will still talk freely about my "large" breast but them not being so large, I'll get a lot of side glances and people thinking I'm vain. I suppose psychologically, I'll always be "You know Gyllian, the short, black, girl with HUGE tits". blog QUOTE: Whoever thought up the word 'mammogram'? Every time I hear it, I think I'm supposed to put my breast in an envelope and send it to someone - jan KING
Here's to going from DOUBLE J to D; physically & psychologically - till the next post!
Good luck! That is something I want to do as well. Keep us posted how it goes please. I know you won't be sorry you did it.
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ReplyDeleteIsn't it funny how our self-perception is so different from what others perceive of us? For some reason I've never noticed your breasts. I remember that when we first met I thought, "She's black? And look, she's my height." You were wearing a pink blouse, jeans and sneakers. The one thing I don't remember is your rack.
As we got to know each other, I'd know you got to work when I would hear people laughing and people stirring around The Boat. For me the name Gyllian is synonymous with the words "powerful," "charismatic," "driven," "fun" and sometimes "makes me want to slit my own throat." But never do I think "Chesty".
I know that the doctors cutting off a piece of you is scary and you will feel like a totally different person- there's no getting around that. But the core of you is not going to change. At least it better not.
OMG! Thank you for this! When I'm depressed because my cup size has been cut in half... I'll read this and know that it wil ABSOLUTELY cheer me up!
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